chapter seven

I never would cry I would hold my emotions in because I never wonted to give her the satisfaction of my defeat. I no longer awaken filling refreshed I would now wake up feeling tired and worthless I would say it was my last day to live. One morning while I was doing the dishes mother had scraped the left over pancakes in to the dog bowl her well fed pets picked at the food then when i knew that the coast was clear i picked at what was left in the dogs dish and ate it I can smell the traces of the dog. we all then wen t to the store and mother told me to clamp my hand on the cart and put one in back of me so I did I was trying to show out but then I thought to myself that when I get out of the store mother is going to punish me. She did she made me get on the back seat floor where my brother were stumping all over me because of the way I was acting in the store to my brother and mother. then mother pulled up to MC donalds and they all went in except me as usual when we got home mother then Immediately mixed the clorox and ammonia she must have known that I was using the rag for a mask so she threw it in to the bucked. the heater didnt come on no fresh air came out the room filled up quickly I must have been in there for over that an hour because the fumes fill the small room all the way to the bottom my eyes then started to water and cry. then when mother came and opened up the door i dashed out to the hall way and she grabbed me by my throat and trying to force my head in to the bucked I tryed to fight back and I did then after that I turned in to my wimpy self again. mother then one day left the baby with father for dad to watch why she went some where I then played with my brother and I loved him so much then on thanks giving day mother cleaned up the house and put on her make up and put on her close that she used to ware back in the day when we were smaller. when father came home he waswith one of his friends and he smalled like a bar mother was supprised and not mad she was very pashent father then went up staires and packed his green bad and said he was leaving he couldnt take it any more so he did come down stairs and eat but mother and father did not talk to each other the hole timethen he came to me and said he was very sorry and then he left the house mother was very mad and upset so all she could do was beet me and say it was my falt that father had left us.

chapter 6

Father then started to help me with the evening dishes. He would wait to talk to me and brake the ice as soon as he felt like the coast was clear he would tell me not to worry were going to get out of this mad house sooner or latter. he was my hero when ever father would talk to me he would tell me his plans for us to get out of mothers house. on fathers off days he came in and came out of the house he didn't even stay more than ten minutes. One day father had knelt down and told me that he was very sorry before he left i threw my arms around him because i didnt know when the next time I would see him I was so sad. When father had left mother had starved me for about ten consecutive days. mother made me mow grass for money for her and on of the neighbor lady fed me lunch finally because i was straving and mom made me puke it up because she thought i had stole the food. mother then played one of her favorite games with me and that was for me to clean the rest room and get done in a reasonable time and since I didn't get done in time she put a bucked , filled with a mixture of ammonia and clorox, in the room with me and closed the door. the first time she did this she had informed me that she had seen this in the newpaper and she wanted to try it. i began to spit up blood wile i was breathing the fumes in. Mother had pulled in the drive way that evening sfter i had mowed the lawns and told me to come up the stairs with her and then i was thinking it was to easy but then mother started to fill the tube up with cold water it was strainge that she never turned the knob were the hot water comes out of. then she told me to take my close off and get in the tube and submerge my head under the water. She then pushed my head under the water and i began not to breath i movede and squermed my head then she finally let me up to take a breath. Then she yelled stay under the water so i did she left out of the restroom it was very cold. some days my brother would bring there friends home and come in the restroom to looke at mend they would ask questions i would hate them even more for the shit that they would do. mother then screamed and told me to get out of the tube and come down stares i grabed the towel and she said oh no, put your close on the way you are so I did. then mother had me skating up and down the block I was the only kid out side in this cold ass weather she only had me in the house because of something that she wanted me to do like a chore. at the end of march that year mother went in to labor while we were at home on easter vacation while dad drove mother to the hospital I prayed that it was the real thing and not a false labor. while father went to go and see mother dad sent us over to play across the street at the home of neighbor named shirley. After mother had presented us witht the nwe baby named kevin evey thing went back to normal after a couple of weeks. mother then came to me appoligizing to me about all that she has done to me and I said it was okay i still love you and forgive you for all all she started to cry. Mom let me take a warm bath and put on a new outfite that i recieved last year. As happy as I was i felt like I was walking on eggshells and It was to goo to be true. The next day a lady from social services had came over and mother had sent me out side to play with my brothers and then the lady wonted to talk to me and ask me some questions she asked me was I happy and if I got along with mother then the lady asked and she never beats you I then said yes only when I am a bad boy I said trying to cover up the truth. After saying good bye mother had walked the visitor to the door and waited till she was gone and turned around and slamed the door in a rage. I covered my face wile mother started to swing and hit me then she made me go to the gorage until I had to do the evening dishes. every morning when dad would get out of bed and up for work i would be up and listening to him get ready and when he would leave he would say try to make her happy and stay out of her way and then give me a kiss. I loved father so much I wonted him to never leave with out me because I didnt know when he would come back.

chapter 5

i always kept my guard up when mother would come my way. know matter how had i worked mother would never feed me lunch. i had began to clean and do my chores then mother came in with her babbling voice giving me a time lime and it was 20 minutes or i wasnt going to eat. mother grabbed a carving knife from the counter top and said if i don't finish in time then she was going to kill me. she has been sayingn this over a week now. mothers body began to weave back and forth she tryed to regain her balance while she was still screaming at me by then her body looked like a rocking chair. out the corner of my eye i saw a blurred object fly from her hand. a sharp pain erupted from just above my stomach my legs gave out and my world turned black. mother was then on her knees applying a thick wad of gauze to place on my stomach. i then tryed to regain my strength and remember where i was i then lost track of time and when i woke up mother was next to me. i was trying to shove off the pain and make my wasy to my hero then when i got to him he sat on the other end of the coach. I told my dad that mother had stabed me and all he could say was why and go back in to the kitchen before your mother catches u in here talking to me all i could do was look at him and be shocked. i also wonted him to look at me and fill my pain of how desperate i was for his help at that poing i lost all of my respect for my dad. i fell to the grown while putting to dishes up my shit was then saturated with blood i tried to regain my footing as father came in and tryed to help me i brushed him off and then he said to go and shange my shirt while he put the dishes up. mother then came down in the garage and gave me a tall glass of water then she said she would feed me latter when i felt a little better i then felt safe knowing that mother was nearby to watch over me when i woke up the next morning my hand were crusted with dried blood all over them. mother then told me to clean myself up in a cold voice and come back and do your choars . i then cleaned my cut and got all of the discolored stuff off it heart like hell though i didnt need my mother help i also didnt wont to give her the stisfaction of helping me. I then sat back in the spot that mother gave me and sat on my hands and immagened that i was a character in a comic book that overcame great odds and survived

chapter 4

my mother would not feed me so every time i would get up to go to school i would pick through every kids lunch i would drop mines first and act like i was picking up my lunch and then sooner or latter every one started to notice that something was missing out of there bag and they all just started not to like me they would hide there lunches in the closet. one day i told my self that i could not go with out eating so i planned to to go to the store and grab something to eat at recess time. I started to get new proof ways to eat like still food from the first grade class. id didnt last long the principal traced the thefts back to me then he called mother and when i got home i got hit on and beet. mother had a meeting withthe principal and said that i make bruses on my body to get attention since the recent birth of his baby brother. we had a family vacation and dad wonted to take us on the new superslide i got scolded because i was to loud comming in so my punishment was that i could not go with father and my brothers on the new slide so i stayed in the cabin with mother and baby. she then was breathing over me with her deap breathing over me. she nealed and said eat it and it was one of my brothers diapers. then she took me in the counter and she opened it up and said eat it so she shoved my face in it and then made get up and she said clean my damn face up thats when my brothers and father had walked in.

Chapter 3

this is when the beatings really started to happen. when i got home mother was on the coach in her robe drinking and watching the television. she got up and smashed my face in to the mirror telling me to say im a bad boy ove rand over again then she took me down stairs and took me in to the kitchen. she said i wasnt allowed to go to the cub scout meeting with my brothers so i sayed home with mother. when she took me in to the kitchen she turned on the burnners and said get on top of the stove so i tryed to avoid her and stall time and ask her questions to take her mind off of putting me on top of the stove. then she put my afm on the stove and burned it when my brother and them came home i fan in to the shed and tryed not to cry so i wouldnt give her the plessure. then i ran in to the house and mom was pulling may arm a loud pop came from my arm my arm started to be in pain i couldnt move it really. then that night she told me to get on the top bunk for tonightr and its weard because i never slept on top i always slapt on the bottom bunk. then the next day she was a little conserend and she rushed me to the hospital and told the docter that i fell of the top of the bunk. he new i didnt but then we left and she told father a ligh when we got home to she said that she was trying to catch me from the fall but that was a ligh.

Chapter 2

we lived in a two bed room house and my dad was a fire man of San Francisco. my mom was a wonderful e woman she always had the house clean and fixed up she would always clean every room and never leave a room with out being touched. she would take us to explore the city and china town. she came home and painted the steps for dad and put the mattes down to sup prize dad when he gets off of work. we also had to keep our rooms clean and help out a little bit the older we got. we had all types of pets like cats, dogs, an aquariums filled with exotic fish and gopher tortoise also mom would always come up with some very constructive lessons for us to learn more. my mom ,dad and brothers we all went to the river to see to sun set at the Russian river i felt so loved when i seen and felf my mother holding me i felt safer then ever.

Chapter One

My name is david I have two brothers. My mom is an alcoholic and she beets on me every day and leaves bruises. I go to School at Thomas Eddison school and today my mom took me to scool after she dropped my brothers off to school. then when i got to school she yelled out the car and said tell them u ran in to the wall and have a nice day. so when i got to school the nurse took me in to her office and examined my body and all of the new and old bruises. then she had the principal come and check me out so after they sent me back to class all of the kids were hissing at me and making noises at me then they called me in to a room and all of my teachers were in there and there was a police man there. He took me to the police station and then typed some papers for a few hours and he was done typing at one. so then he called my mom and told her that i will not be coming home and i will be in a intensive care so she can see. then we left the polices office and he told me with a smile on his face that i was free and i will never haft to go through any thing else like that again.