chapter 6

Father then started to help me with the evening dishes. He would wait to talk to me and brake the ice as soon as he felt like the coast was clear he would tell me not to worry were going to get out of this mad house sooner or latter. he was my hero when ever father would talk to me he would tell me his plans for us to get out of mothers house. on fathers off days he came in and came out of the house he didn't even stay more than ten minutes. One day father had knelt down and told me that he was very sorry before he left i threw my arms around him because i didnt know when the next time I would see him I was so sad. When father had left mother had starved me for about ten consecutive days. mother made me mow grass for money for her and on of the neighbor lady fed me lunch finally because i was straving and mom made me puke it up because she thought i had stole the food. mother then played one of her favorite games with me and that was for me to clean the rest room and get done in a reasonable time and since I didn't get done in time she put a bucked , filled with a mixture of ammonia and clorox, in the room with me and closed the door. the first time she did this she had informed me that she had seen this in the newpaper and she wanted to try it. i began to spit up blood wile i was breathing the fumes in. Mother had pulled in the drive way that evening sfter i had mowed the lawns and told me to come up the stairs with her and then i was thinking it was to easy but then mother started to fill the tube up with cold water it was strainge that she never turned the knob were the hot water comes out of. then she told me to take my close off and get in the tube and submerge my head under the water. She then pushed my head under the water and i began not to breath i movede and squermed my head then she finally let me up to take a breath. Then she yelled stay under the water so i did she left out of the restroom it was very cold. some days my brother would bring there friends home and come in the restroom to looke at mend they would ask questions i would hate them even more for the shit that they would do. mother then screamed and told me to get out of the tube and come down stares i grabed the towel and she said oh no, put your close on the way you are so I did. then mother had me skating up and down the block I was the only kid out side in this cold ass weather she only had me in the house because of something that she wanted me to do like a chore. at the end of march that year mother went in to labor while we were at home on easter vacation while dad drove mother to the hospital I prayed that it was the real thing and not a false labor. while father went to go and see mother dad sent us over to play across the street at the home of neighbor named shirley. After mother had presented us witht the nwe baby named kevin evey thing went back to normal after a couple of weeks. mother then came to me appoligizing to me about all that she has done to me and I said it was okay i still love you and forgive you for all all she started to cry. Mom let me take a warm bath and put on a new outfite that i recieved last year. As happy as I was i felt like I was walking on eggshells and It was to goo to be true. The next day a lady from social services had came over and mother had sent me out side to play with my brothers and then the lady wonted to talk to me and ask me some questions she asked me was I happy and if I got along with mother then the lady asked and she never beats you I then said yes only when I am a bad boy I said trying to cover up the truth. After saying good bye mother had walked the visitor to the door and waited till she was gone and turned around and slamed the door in a rage. I covered my face wile mother started to swing and hit me then she made me go to the gorage until I had to do the evening dishes. every morning when dad would get out of bed and up for work i would be up and listening to him get ready and when he would leave he would say try to make her happy and stay out of her way and then give me a kiss. I loved father so much I wonted him to never leave with out me because I didnt know when he would come back.